Have you ever felt like you wanted to disappear after something hurt you? Just by writing this, I feel so lost, so empty, like I feel nothing at all. I just want to feel the warmth of my mom’s hug and tell her that her daughter here is not okay. But I can’t—we’re far from each other, separated by cities too distant to cross easily, unless I had magic.
I never related to influencers or any kind of person who is famous enough to be judged by the world for simply doing something, until I experienced it myself. It really does hurt, especially since I am the type of person who loves to disappear when everything is not okay. People only knowing how to judging others without knowing the truth or caring someone’s feeling. I kept asking myself why people are so cruel to others, why they’re doing something that make others feel bad about their own selves.
Today’s not a bad day; I just experienced something new that is shaping me into a better person (I guess). Someone told me to move on from that experience and learn from it. Oh, maybe that’s the answer to the uncomfortable feeling in my heart.